In fact, it's one of the things that I struggle with in homeschooling; there is no one to compare my children to so I can tell how they are doing.
Since my children are all on different levels of learning and, in fact, have way different personalities from each other, I can't compare them to each other.
Lately, the problem I've had with being so competitive is that I end up comparing my life to others' as a measure of how I'm doing.
And then when I fall short, or see that I am not as good as someone else, I get down on myself.
So, why do I think I need to be better than others at anything? And why do I think my children need to be the best?
What is wrong with being ordinary?
President Boyd K. Packer gave a fantastic talk in October 2007 General Conference called "The Weak and Simple of the Church". My favorite quote from that was:
"And so the Church moves on. It is carried upon the shoulders of worthy members living ordinary lives among ordinary families, guided by the Holy Ghost and the Light of Christ, which is in them."I want to be ordinary.
And I believe that's all my Father in Heaven wants as well.
He's not expecting fantastic things.
He's not expecting me to be better than anyone else.
We are all his children and just like I can't compare any of my children to their siblings because they are all different, He won't compare me to any of my brothers and sisters.
He just wants me to learn, to love, to have joy.
To live an ordinary life.
That doesn't mean I shouldn't have goals to work on; ways that I can improve myself. But, if I can make it through each day just doing small, ordinary acts of kindness, that is enough.
There's no reason to believe that what I am right now is not enough to bless other people.
Just an ordinary mom and daughter of God is enough.
I am enough.